missthingsplace | Heaven And Hell 12/?

Title: Heaven And Hell - Sequel to One Week In Cardiff.
Author: missthingsplace
Parings/characters: Jack/Ianto. Gwen. new team members.
Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters ... unfortunately.
Summary: Set after series 2.
Spoilers: None.
Warnings: Please read A/N first.
Rating: PG13

A/N Emotional rollercoaster, sorry. This chapter was incredably hard for me to write.

The SUV screeched to a halt as Ianto arrived at Dunraven Bay, Ianto could see his car parked a few feet away. The drivers door wide open. He leapt out of the SVU and hurried over to his car, no sign of Jack and the keys were still in the ignition. He grabbed the keys and slammed the door shut.

Ianto ran down towards the beach and looked around, back and forth, no sign of Jack. The something caught his eye, someone was standing at the top of the cliff, on the very edge. Jack. Ianto ran back up to the cliff top, slowing his approach as he neared him. He didn't want to startle him,, he was so close to the edge if he did he would fall. As he got nearer he realised Jack was only wearing an old old pair of pyjama bottoms and a t shirt he recognised as his own, his feet were also bare.

'Jack.' He called softly.

Jack showed no sign that he had heard him, just stood staring out to sea.

'Jack, please. Move away from the edge.'

'Why?'

'It's dangerous, you could fall.'

'And that would be a bad thing?'

'Yep.'

'Why don't you hate me?' Jack finally turned his head to face Ianto.

'Hate you, why would I hate you?'

'I killed our baby.'

'No Jack, you didn't, it was just one of those awful things that life throws at us sometimes.'

'How do you know?'

'My sister. She's had two miscarriages, they told her she couldn't have done anything to prevent them.'

'But if I had known I was pregnant, maybe ... Jack let out a sob.

'No Jack, not even if you had known.'

Jack turned away from the edge of the cliff and let himself drop to the ground crying. Ianto rushed to him, was on his knees holding him tight as he sobbed into his chest. Finally the sobbing subsided and Jack lifted his head to look up at Ianto.

'I was going to throw myself off the cliff, thought if I did then the pain would go away, but I couldn't do it.'

'It wouldn't have solved anything.' Ianto said gently.

'I know. And the physical pain is lessening now.'

'I think your body is.' Ianto hesitated for a second. 'Doing it's thing, making you better.'

Jack nodded.

'You're freezing.' Ianto stated. 'I'm taking you home.'

'How did you get here, I took your car?'

'The SUV, I'll get Damien to come and collect it.'

Ianto got Jack into the passenger seat of his car and closed the door, then he called Damien and said he'd found Jack where he had said his car was and asked him to collect the SUV, Damien told him it was no problem and they he would get someone to give him a lift. Ianto told him where the spare keys were and thanked him before saying goodbye.

Ianto got in the passenger seat and turned the heating on full. Being on top of a cliff half dressed in January was not a good place to be. Jack barely said a word the whole way home, just sat staring out the side window. Ianto let them into the flat and told Jack he was going in a hot bath, he was still shivering.

Ianto ran the bath and added some bubbles, then after settling Jack in it with promises of coffee he shut the door and headed for the living room. He pulled out his mobile and dialed. Martha answered on the second ring.

'Martha?'

'Ianto? How's Jack.'

'Not good, he vanished this morning and I found him on the top of a cliff, on the edge. Oh Martha, he was going to throw himself off.'

'You stopped him?'

'I didn't have to, he couldn't do it. Martha, he blames himself, says he killed our baby.'

'No, there is nothing he could have done to prevent it, even if he had known he was pregnant.'

'That's what I told him.'

'Did he believe you?'

'I don't know. Martha, what if it's my fault?'

She could hear his voice cracking with emotion.

'Why would it be your fault?'

'I knew something was up with Jack, what if I had made him have tests a few weeks ago when I realised?'

'It's no ones fault Ianto, nothing could have prevented it.'

'Not even ...'

Martha cut him off. 'Nothing. Look after Jack, he's going to need you more than ever at the moment, those pregnancy hormones are still flowing around his body, his moods are going to swing back and forth like mad.'

'I'll be there for him.'

'I'm here if you need me, I meant it Ianto, I'm not going anywhere till I know Jack is okay.'

'Thank you Martha, for everything.

'You're welcome Ianto.'

'I better go, I promised him coffee.'

'Take care Ianto.'

'Bye Martha.'

Ianto ended the call and went to get Jack's coffee. He opened the bathroom door and found Jack laying with his head resting on the back of the bath and his eyes closed, as he neared him he realised Jack was asleep. For the first time in the last couple of days his face was relaxed and his eyes tear free. He wished he could leave him there but the water was starting to cool and he didn't want him slipping beneath the surface. He put the coffee mug on the floor.

Ianto stroked his fingers down Jack's face, causing him to stir.

'Jack, Cariad, you need to get out the bath.' Ianto told him as he pulled the plug out.

He helped Jack out the bath and wrapped a huge towel around him, helping him dry himself, then Jack slipped on the dressing gown Ianto handed him. Ianto gave him his coffee and led him to the living room and sat with him on the sofa.

'How you feeling Jack?'

'The pain has nearly gone now.'

'That's not what I meant Jack.'

'I know. I feel like I want to curl up and die.'

'I spoke to Martha, she confirmed what I said earlier, about it being no ones fault.'

'I'm not sure I believe that.'

'It's true Jack. please believe me. What do you want to do Jack, can I get you anything?'

'I want to sleep.'

'OK, I'll...'

'I want you to come with me, hold me.'

Ianto nodded and took Jack's hand as they walked to the bedroom. Ianto stripped off his clothes and Jack slipped off the dressing gown and they got into the bed. Ianto lay on his back and Jack snuggled next to him.

'I love you.' Jack whispered in his ear.

'I love you too Cariad.'

Ianto shifted so he was facing Jack and pulled him close, pressing a soft kiss on his lips.

'It'll all be okay, I promise.' Ianto told Jack.

Jack looked into his eyes and kissed him gently, seeking comfort in Ianto. They lay like that for a while, kissing softly, no urgency, no lust, just kisses full of love and comfort till they fell asleep.

TBC