Torn 76/?

[missthingsplace]

Title: Torn - Sequel to Be Careful What You Wish For
Author: missthingsplace
Parings/characters: Jack/Ianto, Gwen, My OC's: Damien and Chloe, Martha, UNIT
Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters ... unfortunately.
Summary: Set after series two
Spoilers: None
Warnings: Mentions of Mpreg, angst, language, TORTURE
Rating: PG13 - NC17 For series.

Previous series (Mothers Day/Celebrations/One Week In Cardiff/Heaven and Hell/Be Careful What You Wish For/First Christmas) can be found here: Fic Master List: http://missthingsplace.livejournal.com/14374.html#cutid1

Ianto frowned as he glanced round, he could have sworn that he had heard Jack enter the room again and been expecting him to sit down with him and talk. While Jack was seeing Martha and Chloe off he had been thinking about what they had told him and he knew he and Jack needed to talk, for the first time since what had happened he felt like he needed to get everything off his chest with his partner.

He got up from the sofa and turned off the TV and went in search of Jack, finding him nowhere downstairs he headed up them and as he approached their bedroom he could see Jack through the open door sitting on the edge of their bed with his head in his hands. Jack obviously hadn't heard him come up the stairs, Ianto walked across the room towards him and sat down beside him and Jack looked up, a little startled.

“You've been crying, did they say something that upset you?” Ianto asked. “Didn't you think it was good news?”

Jack shook his head. “No, I think it's the best news I've heard in a long time, I thought you didn't care.”

“Didn't care?”

“When I got back to the living room you were curled up on the sofa again watching the TV, like they had never been here, never said what they did.”

“I admit that was the intention, but I couldn't stop thinking about what they said and I realised it made me happy. For the first time since ... I felt happy about something, the thought that I would be with you for longer than I ever imagined.”

“Really?” Jack asked, reaching out and touching Ianto's face with his fingertips.

“Yep. It made me think, how much I love you, my children and I don't want to lose you.”

“You won't lose us Ianto, I promise.”

“You've put up with so much from me lately, I know I've been hard to live with but I want to get better Jack. I know it won't be easy, I find it hard just to get out of bed in the morning let alone anything else but I need to, want to get well.”

“Admitting you know you're ill is the first step Ianto, you have any idea how happy that makes me? I've been missing you so much, I want the man I fell in love with back.”

Ianto looked downward at the floor. “I know I've not been there for you, that I haven't wanted to be close with you, to have sex.” He said quietly. “I'm sorry.”

“I don't just miss sex Ianto, I miss the closeness we had. I miss just holding you, cuddling you for hours on end and just spending time kissing like we used to. I miss feeling loved.” Jack told him honestly.

“I know I'm not going to get better overnight, but I want you to know how much I love you and that I'm going to do everything I can to get better. I'm sure it's going to be an uphill battle, but I know you will help me, won't you?”

“Always beautiful.”

Ianto smiled softly at his nickname. “Thank you gorgeous.” A tear ran down his face.

Jack pressed a soft kiss to his lips, gentle and full of love.

“But how do I get rid of the nightmares Jack, they scare me.”

“I don't know, but maybe as you come to terms with what happened it will stop them.”

“I hope so, I really do Jack.”

Jack brushed the tears that were now flowing freely down Ianto's face away with the pads of this thumbs and then kissed him softly again.

“I love you Ianto, more than anyone else I have ever loved. The thought that I will have you in my life for so much longer than I could have ever imagined makes me so happy and that maybe our children will be blessed with the same lifeline makes me even happier. Jack paused for a moment and smiled. “All that kissing and making love was doing more for us than we ever imagined.”

A small smile played on Ianto's lips. “I guess so.”

Jack took a deep breath and made a suggestion. “Want to take our babies for a walk, we can drive to the beach and then walk along the cliff?”

“I don't know, I ... yes, before I change my mind.”

Jack stood up from the bed, pulling Ianto with him and into a big hug and then kissed him a little deeper than before. The kiss was tender and loving, no tongues or lust and when it broke he couldn't miss the sadness that was still in Ianto's eyes but he had a good feeling that Ianto might have just turned a corner.

TBC