Amends 45/?

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Title: Amends
Author: missthingsplace
Parings/characters: Jack/Ianto, Gwen, Owen, Tosh
Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters ... unfortunately, just borrowing them for a while.
Summary: AU - What if after the way Jack reacted to Gwen refusing to retcon Rhys at the end of 'Meat' Ianto decided he didn't want to feel like he was second best anymore ...
Warnings: Slash, Angst, Violence, Rape, Mpreg.
Rating: NC17 for the series.

Previous chapters: http://missthingsplace.livejournal.com/276771.html#cutid1

Within a couple of hours Jack had the feeling back in the lower half of his body, his stomach was already beginning to shrink back to it's pre-pregnancy shape and as far as he could tell his insides were reverting to their normal state as well.

Jack and Ianto were still sat side by side on the bed propped up by pillows and the baby was fast asleep in Jack's arms, Owen had been down and checked on them, both the baby and Jack a few times and deemed them both healthy.

“We're going to have to live at the flat for a few days until the house is finished.” Ianto told Jack. “I don't want her surrounded by the paint fumes.”

“We don't have anything for her yet, no cot and barely any clothes and we still don't have a name.” Jack sighed, nodding towards the book of baby names on the bed between them that Ianto had fetched a little while after the birth.

“Rhiannon said she'd pick us up some essential, nappies, vests and babygro's to keep us going until we got the chance to shop.” Ianto told him. “The cot is due to be delivered to the house one the nursery is finished along with the rest of the furniture for the room. My sister couldn't believe we hadn't been more prepared for the baby's arrival.”

“We did have more important things on our minds.” Jack replied a little sadly.

“She knows that, she just likes to take every chance she can to annoy me.” Ianto told him. “What do we do now Jack, we don't have your pregnancy to avoid anything we're feeling uncomfortable with?”

“We have all the time in the world, we don't have to rush into anything.” Jack told him, leaning over a little and pressing a soft kiss to his lovers lips. “The most important thing is to be here for this little one, everything else will come in time. The dream I had, that Owen thought brought on labour, it was about you.”

“You had a wet dream over me?” Ianto asked with a smile.

“I dreamed you were making love to me, I was chanting your name and when I came in my dream I came for real.” Jack replied. “I can only think that my subconscious is trying to tell me that my body misses you.”

“I miss your body too.” Ianto admitted. “I wanted so many times to make love to you while you were pregnant but I didn't want to pressure you into something you weren't ready for, I'm not sure I was completely ready for us being more intimate anyway but ... you have no idea how erotic I suddenly found your huge pregnant the other day.”

“Really? You didn't think I looked like the beached whale I felt like?” Jack asked.

“Nope, not in the slightest.” Ianto smiled.

“Well, I'm not getting pregnant again just so you can live out your fantasy of shagging me pregnant!” Jack chuckled, not letting Ianto know he'd had the same thoughts at times during the last few weeks of his pregnancy. “I meant what I said, we need to take precautions now we know this can happen, not that I regret having this little girl.”

“After what happened I think of her as a gift, a miracle.” Ianto admitted. “If it wasn't for her I'm not sure we would have come even as far as we have now, that Boglam could have fucked up our lives, relationship for good.”

“I would always have forgiven you, you have to know that.” Jack told him. “Even before I found out I was pregnant or about the Boglam I had forgiven you.”

“I'm not sure I've forgiven myself yet, even knowing what caused what happened I still hate myself for getting so out of control.” Jack replied sadly. “Once I left the Tourist Office that night, after I attacked you I hated myself so much. Blocked out what you had done to me first, what I did seemed a million times worse and don't try and tell me it wasn't Jack, what I did to your body was something no one should have to ever suffer.”

“I think if it wasn't for this little'n I think I would have lost you forever, she's played a huge part in out recovery from this and I know it'll never happen again, that I can trust you because what happened is not in your nature.” Jack replied. “I love you and I know you love me so we need to take things at out own pace and we will finally get back where we want to be. Don't hate yourself, please?”

Ianto bent down and kissed the top of the newborn baby's head then shifted so he could kiss Jack tenderly.

“I'm getting there Jack and I have our daughter to help.” Ianto told him. “As I said, our little miracle.”

“That's it, we should call her miracle!” Jack exclaimed.

Ianto cocked an eyebrow.

“No, you're right, stupid idea.” Jack conceded. “Come on, lets try some more names while she's still asleep.”

Ianto picked up the book and flipped through the pages, stopping randomly.

“Marged?” Ianto asked.

“No.” Jack said decisively.

“Gwyneth? ... no too close to Gwen.” Ianto muttered. “Awdfwyn?”

Jack shook his head negatively.

“Cafell, Carey, Carys?” Ianto suggested.

“She doesn't look like any of those.” Jack frowned, gazing down at her face.

“Maegan, Mari, Mabli?” Ianto told him.

“What was that first one again?” Jack asked.

“Maegan.” Ianto repeated.

“Hmm, I like that, what do you think baby girl?” Jack asked the sleeping baby and grinned when her eyelids fluttered open for a second and then closed again. “See, she like it.”

“I like it too, so Maegan it is then?” Ianto asked.

“Yeah.” Jack agreed. “Welcome to the world Maegan Harkness-Jones.”

“Harkness-Jones?” Ianto asked.

“She's both our flesh and blood so she deserves both our names.” Jack explained.

“I didn't like to presume.” Ianto told him with a grin.

Before Jack could reply Toshiko appeared, she knocked on the door frame as she entered the room with a huge smile on her face.

“Rhiannon's walking across the Plass, we just spotted her on the CCTV and I thought it might be nice if her brother went to meet her considering she seems to be weighted down with carrier bags of what I suspect are full of baby things.” Toshiko told Ianto.

“We've chosen a name.” Jack told her as Ianto clambered off the bed. “Stay here and Ianto, bring Owen and Gwen down when you've fetched Rhiannon and then we can tell them all at the same time.”

Ianto gave him a nod and jogged out of the room and up to the main hub. Calling out to Owen and Gwen to go down to Jack he leapt onto the slab of the invisible lift and headed to meet his sister.

He couldn't help but smile when he saw Rhiannon, Toshiko hadn't been kidding when she's said she was loaded down with carrier bags. She was stood near the invisible lift but not close enough to see him emerge from the hub.

“Hello.” Ianto grinned as he jumped into view and made her jump.

“I've been stood here in the bloody cold for ages looking like an idiot, come one, show my my new niece.” She told him, shoving some of the carrier bags at him.

Ianto took them happy in one hand and stepped back up onto the slab with her, his free arm around her waist as they descended back into the hub.

“Where's that dinosaur?” Rhiannon asked, glancing around a little nervously.

“Having a nap probably.” Ianto laughed. “I've ready told you she won't hurt you.”

“She's a prehistoric monster, not a pet!” Rhiannon grumbled, the lift coming to a stop.

“Big sissy!” Ianto grinned, earning himself a slap on the arm from his sister.

“So, does she have a name yet?” Rhiannon asked, following her brother through the hub and down into the lower levels.

“She does and you'll find out soon enough.” Ianto replied, leading her into the room where Jack, the baby and the rest of the team were.

“About bloody time!” Gwen exclaimed when she saw them. “Jack refused to tell us her name till you got back.”

Rhiannon dropped the carrier bags and rushed over to Jack's side.

“Oh she's so gorgeous.” She told him. “Can I hold her?”

Jack carefully passed the sleeping baby to Rhiannon and watched as she cooed over her new niece.

“Come on then, tell you what name you're saddling that poor child with?” Owen snarked.

“Maegan, Maegan Harkness-Jones.” Jack told them all proudly.

“Perfect.” Toshiko smiled.

“Agreed.” Gwen replied.

“That's a lot more normal that I even dared to think.” Owen grinned.

“Rhiannon?” Ianto asked his sister. “Does the name meet with your approval?”

“Yeah.” She told him, smiling up at the assembled crown with tears of happiness in her eyes. “Mam and Tad would have loved her.”

Ianto moved to his sisters side and embraced her, mindful of his daughter in her arms, both of them remembering their parents for a few moments.

“Enough of this, time to celebrate.” Rhiannon said suddenly, pulling out of her brothers arms and handing him the baby before moving to rummage around in one of the carrier bags and pulling out plastic cups and a bottle of champagne.

“Today we have a fucking miracle to celebrate.” She told them. “Lets not get melancholy.”

“Lets get this party started.” Owen enthused, taking the bottle and popping the cork.


TBC

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