Stay Another Day 24/25

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Title: Stay Another Day
Author: missthingsplace
Parings/characters: Jack/Ianto.
Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters ... unfortunately.
Summary: Ianto's in an odd mood
Spoilers: None
Warnings: Angst, may need tissues
Rating: pg13
Lyrics: East 17

The three of them stood there all feeling a little uncomfortable at the statement Ianto had made, even Gwen didn't know how to answer that. Ianto held out his gun to Jack, intending for him to take it back.

“I should be going.” Ianto said as Jack ignored the outstretched hand holding the gun.

“Oh no, you're coming back to the hub with me, we're going to get this sorted once and for all.” Jack told him.

Gwen glanced between the two men, even though he had told them that he and Ianto were dating he hadn't even touched the surface. Even she could tell after this short interaction that they meant a lot to each other, the way they felt shone from their eyes.

“I'd rather go back to my flat.”

“No, this is about work, Torchwood, me. This needs to happen in the hub, you haven't been there since you walked out.”

“Okay.” Ianto agreed reluctantly, he knew Jack wasn't going to back down.

The three of them walked quickly back to the SUV, Gwen slightly ahead of Jack and Ianto. She looked over her shoulder and smiled to herself when she realised they were holding hands, must be love she thought if Ianto was holding Jack's hand in public.

On the drive to the hub they were all a little subdued, until Ianto remembered something.

“Shit, Susan! I ran out on her and she's not stupid, she knows about me and Torchwood now.”

“All she knows is that you used to work for Torchwood, yes?” Jack asked.

“Of course, I'd never have told her anything she should know.”

“Then for now we just leave her be, maybe talk to her but I don't think we'll need to Retcon her.”

Ianto nodded thoughtfully, he was still wondering where this talk with Jack was going to lead. So far every time they talked they just seemed to keep going around in circles. Even he didn't know what he wanted so how the hell was Jack gonna help him come to some kind of decision.

They parked the SUV and headed for the tourist office entrance, when they reached the door Gwen paused for a moment.

“Want me to get Tosh and Owen out the hub? Let you have some privacy?”

“Yeah, that would be great.”

The three of them walked through the cog door together, there was no sign of either Tosh or Owen but they knew they were around somewhere. Jack and Ianto took advantage of this and dashed up the stairs to Jack's office, closing the door and the blinds as they entered.

Ianto pulled Jack into his arms and kissed him deeply, Jack knew it was a delaying tactic but he was happy to take advantage of it for a few minutes. Eventually Jack pulled reluctantly out of Ianto's arms and moved away to sit in his chair behind the desk.

“So, where do we go from here?” Jack asked Ianto.

Ianto shrugged. “I honestly don't know.”

“I know you miss working here, this afternoon only proved the point. If you didn't you wouldn't have abandoned Susan and come with me, would you?”

“I'm not denying that. I miss working here a lot, I miss my job, working with you and I miss the rest of the team, even Owen”

Jack laughed at the end of Ianto's statement.

“And they miss your coffee.”

Ianto couldn't help but smile at that.

“I miss your coffee, and having you at my beck and call.” Jack continued.

Ianto became serious again. “But I still can't get how I feel about seeing you die out of my mind.”

Jack got up from his chair and walked around the desk to where Ianto was still standing, taking his hand he led him back to the chair. He sat down pulling Ianto onto his lap and kissed him softly on the lips, Ianto didn't miss the single tear that escaped Jack's eye before Jack brushed it away.

“I can see how it must hurt, seeing the person you love die but you get me back. Whenever I die at least you don't lose me for good, you get to have me back in your arms.”

“Jack I ...”

Jack cut him off. “When people I love die I lose them forever, I have loved so many people in my lifetime and lost so many of them. I never forget any of them, they are with me in my memories every day and no matter what people say time does not make it hurt less, it just makes it easier to deal with.”

Jack paused as he tired to control his emotions for a few seconds before continuing.

“I think, no I know that I love you more than anyone else I've ever fallen for, when I lose you, whether is tomorrow or in sixty years time I know I'm going to have a hard time coming to terms with it. It's you I want there for me when I get killed, your arms I want to come back to life in.”

Tears were flowing silently down Ianto's face as Jack spoke, he had never looked at it from Jack's point of view before. Could he cope with Jack dying knowing how Jack felt about losing him? Ianto knew he needed some time alone to digest what Jack had just revealed to him.

“I think I should spend tonight alone, but I promise you'll have your answer by the morning.” Ianto told Jack, making no attempt to wipe his tears away.

“Make a list of pros and cons.” Jack smiled weakly.

“Not exactly, but I need to be by myself for a while.”

Jack pulled his handkerchief from his pocket and wiped away Ianto's tears carefully before kissing him tenderly.

“Okay, I can wait till the morning.”

“I'm going to go.” Ianto slipped off Jack's lap.

Jack stood up and pulled Ianto into a passionate kiss, long, hard and deep till they parted panting.

“I'll call you in the morning.” Ianto slid from Jack's embrace and left the office quickly without looking back and headed home.

TBC

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