Deeper Shade Of Blue 25/?
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missthingsplaceTitle: Deeper Shade Of Blue – Sequel to Torn
Author: missthingsplace
Parings/characters: Jack/Ianto, Gwen/Rhys, Martha, 10th Doctor, Donna, Andy My OC's: Caden, Eloise, Claire, Damien, Chloe/James, Ben/Sandy, Ianto's family
Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters ... unfortunately.
Summary: An unexpected event throws their lives in chaos, both personally and professionally ...
Spoilers: Minor ones, no surprises if you have seen the programmes - Set far after season 2 – completely AU
Warnings: Mentions of Mpreg, angst, language, slash
Rating: PG - NC17 For series.
Previous series/chapters: http://missthingsplace.livejournal.com/1
A/N The Children of time awards are now open for voting, Torn is nominated in two catagories, and Vampire!Ianto in one, if you like please vote here: http://childrenoftime.creative-musings.c
After eating and discussing the possibilities of Caden being able to find his sister Jack called a Taxi to take Donna and the Doctor back to the Plass so they could go back to the hub and the TARDIS, giving them strict instructions not to disturb Myfanwy and telling them where the dark chocolate was stashed just in case. Once they were gone Claire went to bed and Jack found himself watching out the window to see if there was any sign of Ianto, he thought about calling his mobile but decided against that in case he made things worse.
Ianto would come home when he was ready he told himself, turning off the lights as he headed upstairs and into Caden's room. He sat on Eloise's bed, leaning his back on the wall beside it and picked up her teddy. The teddy she always slept with and held it tight to his chest with one hand as he watched Caden sleep. His other hand spread on his stomach as he thought of the new, innocent life growing within it.
He was just about to go to his own room when he heard a noise at the front door, like someone trying to get the key in the look and failing. He leapt from the bed and sped down the stairs, flinging open the front door to find a rather pissed Ianto stood before him with his key in his hand looking a little dazed that the door had opened.
“Jack?” His word a little slurred.
“Oh Ianto.” Jack sighed, wrapping his arms around him and holding him tight. He had no idea if Ianto had changed his mind at all but he was just so happy that he was home. “Come on, in.”
Jack loosened his hug and pulled Ianto into the house, manoeuvring him to the living room and sitting him on the sofa beside him. Ianto glanced at him and then looked down at his feet before speaking.
“Jack, I love you, I'm sorry, I'm scared we'll never find Eloise but I didn't mean what I said, I do want the baby.” He said in one long rush.
“Look at me Ianto.” Jack told him softly.
Ianto raised his head and looked into Jack's eyes, he could still see the hurt he had inflicted on him earlier.
“I'm so sorry Jack, so sorry, I never should have said what I said, it was so cruel and I know it must have hurt you so much.”
“Yes, you hurt me Ianto, I never thought you would say something like that. I was scared I would lose you because I could never have got rid of this baby, it was made by us and our love.”
“I was so scared, scared that being happy about the baby would mean it would seem like I didn't care about Eloise being missing, that it was like if we didn't find her then we were having another baby to replace her, I didn't mean to hurt you, it's no excuse but getting rid of the baby just seemed the only thing to do.”
“Never Ianto, this baby could never replace Eloise no matter what.”
“Yeah, except it took me getting very drunk and someone giving me a good talking to to make me see sense.” Ianto told him, his eyes welling up with tears.
“Who did you talk to? They don't know I'm pregnant do they?” Jack asked, a little worried.
“Jenny, and no, she thinks we're adopting or maybe using a surrogate. She found me in the pub, she was out with her mates, wanted to know what was wrong.”
“And you told her?”
“I told her we'd had a fight, she asked if I wanted to talk. At first I said no but then I knew I had to talk to someone and it couldn't be someone we knew without letting the news about the baby out of the bag so I took her up on her offer.” Ianto told him. “Probably for the best, if she hadn't dragged me from the pub I would have probably just kept drinking.”
“Where did you go?”
“Her place, her kids were at their dad's for the night and she thought it would be somewhere we could talk without interruption.”
“It wasn't just an excuse to get my husband alone and seduce him then?” Jack gave a small, sad smile.
“No, she thought I was gay, although she doesn't anymore.” Ianto looked back at the floor but not before Jack saw the look of guilt in his eyes.
“Ianto? Why?”
“I was very drunk Jack, I was upset and angry and ...”
“And?”
“I ... kissed her. Jack please believe me I didn't mean to do it, it just happened, I know it's no excuse and I understand if you feel like you want to kill me but you also have to know she pushed me away and made me stop, I felt so bad, guilty the moment she did.”
Jack got up from the sofa, slid his hands in his pockets and moved over to the window, looking out as he responded.
“Was it a good kiss?” Jack couldn't keep his upset out of his voice. “If she hadn't stopped you would you have slept with her?”
“No, no.” Ianto replied as he jumped up from the sofa and moved to where Jack stood, turning him to face him. “It was stupid, I don't want anyone but you.”
“Me and our baby?”
“Yes, you and our baby.” Ianto placed his hand on Jack's stomach. “Jenny made me talk to her, made me see how upset I would be if we didn't have the baby. How much I was hurting you.”
“So I should be thanking her, not jealous of her? Nothing happened, other than the kiss?”
“Nothing to be jealous of Jack, you have to believe me I should never have kissed her and I could have not told you but I want to be honest, we promised no secrets between us remember? I want you and only you, I want to find our daughter and tell her she's going to be a big sister.”
“You really mean it, you're happy about the baby?”
“Yep, and I can't wait to tell the twins, both of them together. I've wanted this for nearly a year, in my heart I knew I didn't really want you to terminate the pregnancy.”
“I never would have Ianto, you have to know that. I'm not sure how I could have coped if you had left me over it but not having this baby was never an option for me.”
“I'm sorry.” Ianto pressed his hand to Jack's face and brushed his thumb over Jack's cheek. “So sorry I hurt you, I don't think it would ever have come to me leaving you. I love you too much.”
Jack's expression visibly relaxed a little.
“I love you too.” Jack replied before pressing a soft chaste kiss to Ianto's lips before continuing.
“Tomorrow after we go to the lake, where the divers WILL confirm that Eloise is not in the car we are taking Caden to the TARDIS. The Doctor thinks that it's definitely possible that the twins might have a link and the TARDIS can confirm whether or not they have and if Caden has it, then we can try and get Caden to help find his sister.”
“He's said something else?” Ianto asked, his hopes getting up a little.
“Yeah, to Claire earlier in the park, that she told him she wanted to be back with her daddies.”
“So after all this our son could find his sister? Jack, we could have her home safe and sound soon.”
“Yes!” Jack exclaimed.
“Do you forgive me? For the way I acted, what I said, what I did?” Ianto asked quietly.
“As much as you hurt me at the time, yes, I knew you could never mean it.”
“Sorry, I thought if I told you about ... Jenny you'd hate me, want to kill me. I wasn't going to tell you but I knew if I didn't it would just keep eating at me and, you know that things about no secrets .....” Ianto apologised again.
“Shhhh, I don't hate you.” Jack told him, kissing him deeply, a kiss that told him he was forgiven.
“We should try and sleep.” Jack suggested when the kiss broke.
Ianto nodded, Jack took his hand and led him upstairs. Once they were in bed Ianto lay curled against Jack's side, his hand on his stomach and imagined the tiny foetus within as he closed his eyes and tried to sleep. Jack placed his hand on top of Ianto's and thanked whoever was listening that the day was over and hoped that the morning would bring them the news they were waiting for about the car and Caden.
TBC
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