The Diary That (Mostly) Never Was 13/?
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missthingsplaceTitle: The Diary That Mostly Never Was
Author: missthingsplace
Parings/characters: Jack/Ianto.
Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters ... unfortunately.
Summary: Ianto's diary entries in the year that never was
Spoilers: End of days
Warnings: I foresee lots of angst
Rating: pg - pg13 for series
Previous chapters here: Fic Master List: http://missthingsplace.livejournal.com/1
Saturday 29th November
When I finally dragged myself off the bed this morning, still fully dressed from last night there were more than a dozen text messages on my phone, all but one from David. The other was from Toshiko, asking how my date had gone. It took me a while longer to get up the courage to read them. I phoned Tosh first and admitted to her how I was still feeling about Jack and what a mess I'd made of last nights date.
Tosh told me that she didn't quite believe the front I was putting on at work where Jack was concerned and wasn't at all surprised by my revelation. She was very sympathetic about my nightmare date but she also told me if I really liked him I would have to tell him about Jack, or I would lose him. I told her I felt like I was cheating on Jack when I was with him, she told me only I could decide what I wanted.
She's right, but I already know what I want, I want Jack. And I can't have him, but can I settle for second best? That I don't know. Can I bring myself to sleep with another man? I don't know that either, before Jack I would never have even thought of sleeping with a man. Maybe it would be better if I met a girl? These are the questions I don't know the answers to.
I plucked up the courage eventually and read David's text messages, I was actually surprised. I thought he'd be angry with me and calling me every name under the sun but they were all just him asking if I was okay in various ways and threatening to come to my flat if I didn't respond by this evening to make sure I hadn't done anything stupid. I text him back and asked him to come round next Saturday, maybe by then I'll be ready to explain myself.
TBC
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Date: 2008-09-10 05:16 pm (UTC)Nicole
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Date: 2008-09-10 05:19 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-09-10 05:45 pm (UTC)Thanks :D
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 06:43 pm (UTC)More in the morning ...
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 07:01 pm (UTC)Thank you :D
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Date: 2008-09-10 08:24 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-09-10 09:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 11:30 pm (UTC)O.O
Not good! I dont want to like someone who isn't Jack.
-pout-
Loving sympathetic Tosh though :) she's the best.
And and and. Loving this.
I say andandand too much!
=D I'm hyper. Sorry. -slinks away-
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Date: 2008-09-10 11:32 pm (UTC)Thank you.
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Date: 2008-09-10 11:33 pm (UTC)I try my best. -bow-
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Date: 2008-09-10 11:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 11:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-11 06:44 am (UTC)Thanks :D